haiss. stress stress stress. so long nv update liaoss. nth to do online recentlyy.. v stress sia. feel like cryingg. kip studyingg. dunno wad else can i do. hope time passes fasterr. tis few daes oso not in gud mood.. auntie visit.. plus im v v tired tis few daes. like no energy to do my tings. feel so moody.. hai..... y mus ppl study... reali felt so tired. if i cant clear my O den i go help my dad le.. be his secretary.. hehe.. hai.. but of cos hopefully i can clear la... haiiiii. suddenly v sad sia. 2 more daes.. chinese paper.. im gonna dieee. come in blog awhile den go le. hai hai hai. i suffering from depression. haa.. den owaes eat panadol. lol. aiya. oso dunno wad toking mi. dun wanna sae le. when i free den i come n update. byebye.

yawnss. so sianzz... nth to do siaa.. currently on fone wid kel.. hahass. den he tell mi bout jonathan Ong. kinda miss him siaa.. too bad he dun haf his contact no. hmmm.. so long nv c him liaoss. anywae, headache sia. haiss. today din go to fajar mac. cos its sundae ma.. den lazyy. den jus now kat ask mi acc her to her ex void deckk. her ex psycho sia. tmd. wanna return her everything tt she gave him n everything tt she left in his hse. den i go n help her carry her tingss. den she came over to mua hse. tis kinda guys.. reali is psycho. so next time c guys mus open the eyes BIGGER. hahaa....

hmnm.. hope the time pass fasterr.. den i can play ler. hahasss. aiyaa.. out of suden dunno wad to sae oso.. so i shall stop here.. bubye.

haiissss. sad siaa.. i jus changed my hairstylee. den abit...... hais. dunno leh. i not used to itt maybe. budden my hair !! its not e top.. its e bottom. today i spent 150 on rebond, treatment, n cut. haisss. i asked tt person to kip tail for mi. den !!! after cut finish le i ask, where is my tail? den she even sae yah hor.. she forget!!! wa paingss. now my hair become so shortt. ji ku neh neh. kuku birdd! den after tt i go back mac le den i kip cryingg. cry till everyone walk pass mi all look at mi.. haiss. i noe ya'll will be tinking. it's jus a hair wad.. e most wait for it to grow back lo. its nth wan wad.. cry for wad... budden!! u noe v heartpain anott.. i cry until machiam brk wif bf lidat. my hair is my precious u noee... ppl c mi sure luff at mi de.. hais. aiyah suan ler. hu careess. now wan to faster wait for mi hair to grow back..


hai. mus kan kai yi dian.. i depression liaoo. arghh! no mood to blog ler. free den come back n update.. n anywaee.. o lvls is jus 9 daes away!! kampateh.

toro ah toro.. pls gimme e strength n motivation to study n score well! ha... sian. gtg. bubye.

h0h0. its blogging time again.. today's entry will be a long one. woohoo~ e chalet is fun man. din slp for e whole dae siaa. hmms. ytd kel drive us to sentosa. hahas. first time he drive us till so far.. si bei shiok.. lols. den reached dere le den slack awhilee. den play dose tupid games.. den e one hu lose mus drink liquor. lol. ytd drink quite alot..

untill nite time, we went to e beach.. den bla bla.. den after tt, i got a SURPRISE. lols. cos he came n find mi. without telling mi. at GR mall hor? eating hor? or at ur hse dwnstairss? rite mr jon? LOL. hehe.. but ytd was not a gud dae la.. everyone bad mood. den throwing temper.. den gulshan got strangled by tt kinda tingss.~

hmmm. yurika is going ler. so sadd. ytd tt scenario.. wa piang ehhh~ damn touching lorr. i cried siaa.. thou im not close to her, n seldom tok, but ytd tt scenario reali ish v touchingg. imagine if u're leavingg e country .. den ur frens, e gers n e guyss, all sang a burfdae song for u, n sang "goodbye" n "graduation" . touching rite? if e one leaving is mi, i tink i'll cry like siaoooo. hmm. den i hugged her n tell her i'll miss her when she's not around.. hope tt she enjoyed her selff. =))

umm.. after tt, we drink. hahas. drink till i sehh. plus e cigarette... ji tao sehhh~ bth. ytd i was kinda mad. lols. i smoked more den 4 i tink.. i broke record le. . when i was drunk i noe i kip shouting for cig. hahas. den dunno hu sae u tink u smoke machine ah. LOL. den i anyhow tok. den run here run dere.. hais. alot of tings lar. but some i forgot wad i sae le.. mi, cin, ying oredi cannot make it liaoss. alot of tings happen lar. caier oso drunk . hahas. but after tt in e middle of e night i go wash up den i qing sing ler. our room no place to slp liaos den mi n ying went to e guys room to slp. but i din slp for e WHOLE nite. cos e almost everyone in e room is snoring lorrr. BTH. u imagine thre are about 10 guys or more in e room. den imagine how loud it is.. all snoringg. -_- so i bth went downstairs .. den lijun oso nv slp.. so we tok cock for bout 2 hrs lidatt. hahas. e whole chalet onli both of us nv slp niaa. yawnnss~ im lazy to continue ler.
anywaes, gulshan v gud siaa.. noe how 2 take care of other ppl. hahas. n..... wanna sae thx n sorry for e trouble ytd.. hahaha. i noe i machiam siao kia lidatt.. thx for those guys tt help mi.. n sorry alwaes take ya'll cig. e most i buy n return ya'll next time ok? haha. thx guys! mwahs.

im tiredd.. wanna slp! byeeee.

hais. freyohh... not in gud mood tis few daes siaa.. oso dun wanna sae y.. cos it brks my hart. hmm.. ytd went for my skul de bbq. held at BB the jade condo. hmm.. reached dere at 5 plus wif cindy, den slack n sit dere like an idiot for 2 hrs i tink. until afica come den not so boringg.. den we eat lorhs. eat ler den go to e function room wif de guys n andy to slack n play poker. lol. n omg tt eugene reali makes mi wanna puke!! wtf sia.. kip acting infront of us. no use getting our attention lorhs. cos i till tink u sucks. wahahhaa. =PppP ya, im lidat.. tts the wae i am.. wad can u do???? haha. den the bd boi v farni. Lols! heart attack he sae heart break. LOL. LMAO. luffed like hell.. urmss. den after tt ad about 9 plus to 10, mi n cin went to GR mall.

slacked arnd too.. dun feel like going home maa.. hais. sian.. so go dere mum mum lil bit. den arnd 11 plus went home ler. cin came my hse n stay overnight. =)) freyoyo.


hmm.. tml i will be going to chalet. den wil be staying overnight for one dae. omg. den i'll be slacking for 4 daess!! kuku .. i nid brain wash. hahs. ya'll dun miss mi too much when im not arnd.. hehes. oh my , its 4.25 am ler. i gtg oinkoink liao. miss ya peeps! mwahs.

hope tings will be going better for us. i dunwan another heartbreak. i nid rest~~ it takes 2 hand to clap ya noe??? i've done my part.. n u shld...

gtg. bye darlings.

=..........( sadded. boiboi gone ler. so coincidence tt its eileen's aunt de doggie. den jus now i returned him back to dem. todae whole dae no mood sia.. hais. nvm .. when i free i go her aunt hse play wid him. missed him so much oredii.. u r foreva my boiboi... =) he mus be happi tt he found back his owner.. reali not meant to be mine... but its okaii. i oso wan to c him happi. ^^

hmmms. wad else to sae? today i din study for the whole dae.. cos no mood plus headache. hahs. den went to giant wif my bro n lynda.. den after tt went to beauty world for our dinner. den saw zhi peng. lols. haiii. denn.. tts all ba.. haf been slacking for e whole dae man.. bo sim study le. but i will still study lars. tupid caier owaes sae he wan gers. tink he gone crazy liaos. lol. aiyah buddyyy, still got mi maa! im ur night shift leh. LOL. rem i wan piggyback!! i dun caree. lolsss.

freyoyo.~ mi n Y now is gud frens. NTH else. gud frens plus jogging mates . haha. i reali gif up on him le hor.. glad tt we can remain as pals. tts gud... hmmm.. and, [u] mus belief in mi k? mi n him jus gud frens nia. i onli love u. (o"o) hehe..


sighh~ suddenly felt tt my world is turning upside downn. like i haf to lose so many tings out of a sudden. first, i haf lost boiboi. den, today my bro told mi tt we going to move hse ler. but still not confirm where we'll be movin.. but confirm will move .. seriously i reali dun feel like moving lo. i cant bear to leave tis place, tis hse. i haf tons of memories here. hais~ den today, my parents quarrelled. now my family facing financial probs. i haf to spend my money wisely oso.. sadded. todae reali not in a gud mood lo.. my mum jus came back. den she cried.. n she was so drunk. knn.. she kana bullied by customer.. pls lorr.. shake hand onli , den e customer sae my mum seduce her husband. WTF! den force my mum to drink so muchh.. wth sia.. farking bitch. haiss. c her lidat v sad oso.. today ish reali not a gud dae for mi.. so better not provoke mii..

hope tml will be a better dae for mi.. i nid motivation!

lols. tt anonymous reali is a siao farker siaa.. but oso gud la.. when i boring SHE can entertain mi.. dun tink tt i dunno tt u r a SHE. cum'on laa.. tis is such a tupid game tt i play when i was in pri skul. i didnt noe tt u r tt childish .. u r such a big fark LOSER. wahaha. no wonder u cant stand a place in his hart. n pls accept the fact tt he doesn't loveu. lols. wad u've done reali makes mi feel like LOL. yawnss. enuff of tis.. tink i'll stop here.. do come n entertain mi often kaes? cos im jus so bored..


anywaee, sadded siaaz. my dad dunwan boiboi. he saes one dog is enuff.. =((( saddedd. i haf 1 week time to tink. he either wan to gif to his fren or lemme gif it to my frenss. actuali wanna gif kelvin de. but abit bu fang xin lehs. lol. haiss. she bu de him siaz.


anywae jus to update ya'll.. in tis blog the *hE* i alwaes refer to, is no longer the *he* in my previous blogg. =)) cos i oredi given up on him.. n i love my *him* noww.. keke..
i lurve ya~! muacks. =D

todaay morning, my new doggie, boiboi was lost. =(( wa laoo. freaking asss. i was slping lor. den suddenly my bro n his gf wake mi up n tell mi he's lost. its reali a BIG SHOCK ok. i JUMP out of my bed n ask if its real. sad to sae, its real.. den i started to panic n cry n feel so bloody sad cum frustrated bla bla. den i tink tts not e wae if i continue to walk up n down in e hse without doing anytingg. den i faster open e door n i reali dun care lor. i jus ran down the stairs with my messy hair. den when i reached 7 floor i saw boiboi sitting outside other ppl's hse. pheww~ reali a relieved lor. jus 2 daes ive got feelings wid him le. imagine if the owner puts up a notice n i haf to return him back to him.. i'll cry man~ den i was tinking, if he reali jus ran away like dis, den he reali is not meant to be mine lo.

same ting applies to tt matter. if he reali went away, tt means we r not meant to be together. n he's not meant to be mine. its jus like i lost *him* e other time.. but tis time, i found him backk. i'm reali glad to haf him backk. but im not assured tt whether he will stay by my side for longg. wad if he runs away again? i can find him back for e first time doesnt mean tt i will find him back the 2nd time if i lost him. but of cos, im jus setting an example. i dun wish to lose him again... n i hope tt he can stay in my life. yes, my LIFE. i seldom use tis .. i hope we can clear each other's doubts n be happily together again.. i hope tings r still e same....... cos, u matters alot to me.

"Have You Ever"

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

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but i hope i can REALI get u back again. get u back into the world tt belongs to the both of us previously.. u said let time prove. den y not we prove to each other. n clear the doubts between the both of us. in da past there are ENDLESS misunderstandings between the both of us. now, i hope i can amend everythingg. haiss. felt so moody for e whole dae.

yippieee! i've g0t a new doggg! we found him behind fajar mac, so i adopted him. Frey0h~! its a maltese! sho kute. keke. hapi siaa. starting we tot is sumone de. den we onli play wid him for awhile.. after tt realised tt no one comes n bring him home.. so ke liann.. den we bring him to RC. den to fitness corner. tupid kel.. bring him go to e grass n run.. den kana bitten by ant. so mi n kel faster bring him home loh. n bath him bla bla.. baobei almost raped him! lolsss. she despo sia. jus like an AUNTIE trying to rape a lil boi.. poor boy boy. lolss! =P haiii. both of dem are givin mi headachee. warss~ i nid peace~ hahaha. ya la~ tts itt. free den i upload the foto to shopw ya'll k? gtg ler. buaii.


[~.Mish.Yew.~]

h0h0x. i've put in song to my blog ler. suddenly fall in lurve wid tis songg. cos actuali the lyrics are quite meangful.. includes wad i wanna sae n my feelingss. lols. ummm.. tis few daes arhh.. damn boring lohh. study n study.. super sian lorh. haisss. o lvl faster finish ahhh~ den i can do alot of tingss.. n i can play like siaoo. i wanna cut my hair, i wanna dye, i wanna rebond. i wanna go clubbingg. i wanna go wild wild wet.. bla bla bla.. i wan to play till i go crazyyy! i've tink thru ler. all tings are fated de. so IF. i reali happen to fail my O. den forget it ler. i will choose other paths. cos i noe i try my best le ma.. if reali still cannot make it den forget it lo.. nan dao wan mi to commit suicide? impossible de lo..i still got alot of tings tat i haben fulfill n haben experience lehs. haha. i sae all tis jus to be mentally preparedd. IN CASE it reali happennss. sighh~ my internet explorer sucks like shit. kuku de.. eg ppl's blog got music, den i onli can hear the starting.. den stop liaos. wtf siaz.
yawnnnss~ tis few daes 5 plus am den i slp. hahas. abnormal. suffering from insomnia... anywaess. ytd i saw qun cry till so sad, i oso feel v sad lorhs. haiss. ke lian de qun. tt tupid chou nan ren! almost all guys sux !! dunno treat us gers as wad ...... treat us like shit. idiotic ass. hell to tt guy man.. hope she'll recover soonn.. =))

hmmm.. nth else to blog le lahh. sians. gtg ler. buaiii. mwahs~

suddenly felt abit sadd.. cos i tink smth change le............... its not the same anymoreee. its all my fault. maybe tats wad god planned for mi. n for mi to pay for a price for wad i've did in da past.. for all my sins. ya i noe.. maybe i deserve it... but........ pls dun make it happen ok? i tink i might not be able to take itt.. argh~! hao fan ahh~!

hmmm.. i tink i nid to sae sorri to alot of ppl.. becos of my decision ytd.. but i cant sae it out here.. but, reali sorry! andddd. i wanna sae sorry to him oso.. he might find it weird tt i suddenly treat him so coldly.. n suddenly wanna gif up.. after so long of holding on.. but, becos.. he didnt tell mi anything.. i rem the last time he said we remain as frens. so, how long am i going to wait? so tis time, i have to be cruel to him n its reali reali time for mi to forget himm. im so sorry.. maybe u might find it diff to accept ... but.. i haf to make a decision... we can still remain as best frens. sorry for being cruel to u... n thnx for the motivation/encouragement etc.. tts all i can saee.. n.... aiyah.. dunno how 2 sae laa.. all of u gonna get a BIG SHOCK from mi soonnnn...............

since i chose tis decision, i haf to face alot of problems myselff. cos i haf to pay a price to it. ya'll might tink im cheap/flirt etc.... after ya'll noe bout my decision.. BUT. i NOE wad im doingg. k? if ya'll wanna tink tt wae i oso cant stop u ma. i dunwan to lose my happiness anymoreee.

hmmm.. im bacK. ytd nite chatted wif weiliang.. chatted for a long time sia.. umm.. ya wad he sae is v true n meaningful.. he v power siaz. can sae out exactly wad im tinking n wad i cant explain.. *applause* lolss. ytd told him i v fan.. den i sae i cant explain my feelings too.. den he sae "u r not thinking. u r hoping to hav someone who can mend yr broken heart made by someone who cant gif u happiness" wa piang ehhhH! pro siazz. den he gif mi alot of advice norr.. thx ! feel much better orediii.. i will try not to tink norrr . and he still sae " u actually hab a chance to be saved frm tis hurtful things? but u did something and its over? den he leaving or something lyk tat??" pro pro. he noes exactly wad im tinkingg. hahas!

errr... ytd ahh.. quite farni lahss. budden ytd i no moodd. den at the RC dere.. tupid caier n ying.. dance the line dance.. den make mi luff like hell.. i luff til i vomit siaz. eeeee... hahass! cos b4 tt i oredi feel like vomiting liaos. den they make mi luff till lidatt.. so i cant stand it.. den vomitt. lols! today when i wake up vomit again.. haii.. diee.. am i pregnant?? LOL. =x hmmm.. now still nua-ing.. later still going to mac studyy. hmmmmm... hope HE can feel how i feel. alrightttt. shall stop here bahss. tataa..

well, haf my blog changed. cos i jus feel like changing everything suddenly. hmm.. im lazy to edit my template.. n its getting late now.. so i will edit when im free.. jus bear wif it first ba.. n i might changed into another blogskin.. so jus temporily use tis first bahh.. feeling quite down at this moment now.. oso duno wad to blog........... update the next time....


*i'm sorry for the tings i did to u*
*there's many tings i wish i didnt do*
*n i didnt mean to hurt u*