wahhh. so many daes nv blog le. lazy to blog. okies, come to blog before i go for my genting trip. will be leaving tml n coming back on mon. hees. will be going wif wei, lin n her family~ gonna be fun. keke. cant wait for tml. but will be away for 3 daes. will miss my baobei doggy n dar dar~ woh0.

tis few daes din get enuff slp. very slpy sia. haiss. if fairy godmother ask mi for a wish right now, i will wish tt i can slp for 42 hrs without any disturbance. hahass. stupidd~ but reali v slpy na. siann~ haben pack my bag for tml. now its oredi 4.14am n im still on fone wif dar n my ex hubby. lolx. conference~ tml stil mus go n open the shop at 12. zzzz.... let mi slp~!!

hEeSs. feel tt im so xing fu now to hab my dar. i tot tt no guys or rather no one would be trusted anymore... i tot tt every guys r e same.. but he prove mi wrong.. hehe.. thank god, i've found him. though i still dun haf much confidence in tis kinda tings anymore, but hope dere is a miracle for us~ cant afford to lose him now. got alot of tings to tell him, but sumtimes i jus dunno how to express myself. hais. in e end make everything the other wae round. even worse. aiya... juz hope tt he will be my last one n hope our journey nv ends! =)

woww.. few daes nv blog... n lotsa tings happened... went to club wif wei they all, n kev they all.. tt was on 16.. din reali noe wad happened tt dae.. n tts oredi the past.. so dun mention it le bah.. den he n his gf was dere too.. haiss.. spoil my mood lorss.. lucky still got terrance n kevin they all lor. or else i will be like a stupid sitting behind all by myself.. why mus he come sia.. hais.. nvm.. dat dae i wanted to drink. but all of us dun haf moneyy.. so din drink loh. leave the club at arnd 3 lidat.. slacked dere for awhile, den about four we went to terrance hse... den we gurls go first cos high tide. den the guys go n buy liquor.. hahaa.. we drink black cat.. n guess wad... after i drink tt i dunno wad happened.. yuan lai i did so many stupid tings.. hahas. wei they all tell mi den i noe de.. n i even fall from the bed to the floor alot of times.. no wonder my head got one big baluku... lolz. i broke terrance's fav cup.. so guilty.. cos i dunno wad i doing..

oppz n i kip clinging on kev. hahas. so sorry. a long story la. woke up at 11 plus in da morning, den left his hse at 12.. n when i tink of i still haf to work at 2pm, i ji tao sian diao.. hais.. den bo bian.. i msg uncle joe tell him i not gg.. hangover very jialat loh.. den slept until 6plus gg to 7 in da evening.. even until tt time i still feel giddy .. dunno y..

today is baobei's bd. haha. 6 yr old le.. n tml is mummy's bd.. =D happi birddae! =))

n haii.. tt farker! wth do u treat mi as! i m utterly disappointed in wad u;ve done! do u noe wtf r u doing!! u tink by saying sorry can oredi.. ? den if its like tt can i slap u n tell u, oh im sorry.? fark la horr.. im not a pros k. didnt noe u're such a person. using mi as a subsitute? to wan her to win u back? i tell u, u dream on! if our sistership is not strong enuff wad do u tink will happen to us? go n tink about wad u've done to mi! u asshole. let mi tell u u are even worse den tt bastard. at least he dun love mi, he jus broke off wif mi n nv come back agn. n wad bout u? telling mi all those bullshiets n tell ying u nv loved mi before? u're jus replacin mi as her? haf u ever tot of how i feel? dun u tink u haf to be r* for wad u've done? if u tink by using mi, u will get her back, den i tell u. u're wrong. in e end u will jus lose the both of us. it doesnt matter to mi anymore. y mus i be sad for such a farker lyk u ? i reali reali uds y ppl alwaes sae trust urself but no one else. cos nobody in tis world can be trusted. even ur best buddy. well wad more can i sae? im speechless. for wad u've done. i belive god can see wad u're doing. n u will receive ur retribution soon. u deserve it n u dun deserve anyone's sympathy. y shld i sympathy u in e first place? ya, im stupid. n tis will reali be the last time.

hmm. found a job oredi. at far east. - radioactive. hees... uncle joe very gud. hope i can work at tis shop for long. temporary working as part time first. today is from 5-9. tml oso the same. hmmm.. den after work meet ying n wei at cine. go play pool.. hahas. den go kobayashi eat again.. mis the food dere lots.. oso miss the tyms. hais. but tings n ppl changes all the times.. we were crazy-ing arnd .. hahas.. taking fotos..

haiii. it reali hurts mi so much. y cant i jus treat as nth haf happened before ? y cant i jus accept the fact? dun sae u love me if u nv felt tt wae before. it hurts alot.

n actuali i oso dunno wad happenedd.. suddenly seems to be like strangers ? feeling so weird... ya.. everyone changes.. so jus continue wif my life.. n at least i was once very happi being together wif dem.. everyone is like gg our separate waes now... but i nv forgot wad we had. =) but i noe. they dun nid mi anymore. i dun make any difference in the grp.

haiss. ytd daddy confronted mie. i dunno how he noe bout tt. he said u got onli 2 choice. if u wan to choose smking den u dun haf daddy. if u choose daddy u cannot choose smking. u onli got 1 choice. u tink ur daddy more imp or smking more imp. of cos is my daddy more imp lar. he is my everything leh. how can i choose tt n dun choose daddy. den he said hope i wun brk my promise agn. coz i oredi brk my promise for 3 times. if i brk the promise i haf to bear the consequences. den he sae let me finish my last few sticks den i cannot touch tt agn. of cos i promised. den today mama caught mi smking AGAIN. -____- she jus nag n nag at mi. den dunno y suddenly i tot of alot of tings n cried infront of daddy. oh my, i tink my depression is back again...

den ytd night went to ying hse to stay overnight. chit chatted n watched vcd. looks like both of us r in the same situation. haiii. i didnt slp for the whole nite. jus cant slp. aiyoo..

i tink im in deep trouble. cos wad i feel for u is beyond words.. argghh..
standing beside u, and i cant sae i love u.

im tired. feel like slping. forever. had enuff of millions of cruel tings tt happen to me. i reali dun uds. n i oso dun tink anyone will uds how i feel n wad im gg thru. they alwaes sae, ber, i uds. i reali uds wad u;re gg thru. dun tink too much. tis is wad ppl alwaes tell mi. but u tink there's use ? n not jus a word sorry can cure everything. haiss. i reali feel like giving up everything oredi..... even U treat mi tis wae.. im totally hurt. i tot even if the whole world dun care bout mi oredi, i tot even if i dun haf the whole world, u will still alwaes be the one dere... but tings alwaes changes....... tings haf not been gg smooth for mi from the beginning of yr... i may seem tt im alrite now.. i may seem more cheerful n optimistic now... but actuali tts jus the appearance... im like wearing a mask.. i haf to act like nth is bothering mi... in fact its not like tt! i feel so pain u noe.. cried myself.. hide n bottle everything to myself... hais.. i dunno wad to sae anymore.....

yeaaah~ changed my blogskin le. last time tt wan too bloody. peace~ wooo.. edit tis tupid template for quite some time.. getting tired... waa... n i jus simply lurrrrrrve my blog de music to the core! favourite song. Our story. listen le will cry wan leh. hahas. reali lurve it.. hmm..

now wad shld i sae? okie. stayed at home for the past few daes. ytd midnight sneak out agn. =x
go find lin n yishu. den today, acc kai go salon. hahass. so farni. after tt i go pasamalam wif my bro n da sao, den we go ah ma hse makan. today i almost died arr. my family whole dae at home. den my bro owaes stay in my room play game. i totally no chance to sk. den tahan until midnite den he go back to his room. almost died. hmmm.. feel like trimming my hair. cos its like my hair did not grow at all for the past few months still same length. -.-

arghhh~ im boredd. blog tml. im tired. bb!