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and when she speaks

Sunday, May 29, 2005

hais.... very sick n tired of life... y is life alwaes full of problems.. no freedom.... so much problems.... y cant i jus lead a simple life..... if onli i can end my life.. once again.. i will defintely end it...... if onli i can jus go.... n leave my family... frens.... love ones.... i wan to leave tis world.... y mus i be in this world to receive all the sufferings... unpleasant tings... i realise...i cant take it anymore... i kip evything in my hart n i reali cant take it anymore ..... lots n lots of tings...i juus wan to lead a simple life.... y cant do so.... teach me. .. wad to do.... god can u pls take mi away from tis world.. i dun wanna continueee........... im tired...... reali tiredd.... tis time.. jus let me go .. dun wana be like last time ... wanna go but end up suffered myself... once n for all... jus let me go........

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

im back, getting lazier n lazier to blog le. but still, now im here to blog. jus came back from ter hse. ytd go his hse nv go home agn. =x dar oso dere. =) cos ytd is my off dae. den supposed to go msia wif ter. but both of us overslept. plus no money how to go? hahas. so din go lo. den arnd 8 plus go ter hse. until today morning 8 plus den go home. hahas. planned to go home at 3 plus de. but lazy to walk home. teck whye lehz. hmmm.. dunno y uncle let mi have 2 daes off. so today not workin oso. heez. later gg jurong point wif dar n ter. my baobeii` hahas. jus go walk walk norr.

err.. tis few daes nth much happen lahs. jus the same old routine. work, knock off, ter hse, go home, bath n go for work again. tired seh.. almost everydae ton at his hse.. den ytd e 3 of us sit outside his hse.. got a rooftop lidat wan.. first time sit dere.. starting like very scared tt i mite fall dwn lidat.. but after tt ok le.. quite relax.. sit down dere n smk, chit chat. den ytd mi n dar chatted alot. hees. oh yaa.. there;s one uncle.. erxin loh. got free show watch. lol. he watching tv den doing those erxin actions himself.. omg~ tink he watching porn.. gan erxin ... yucks. wahaha. tupid ter. still sae wan take binoculars. wahaha..

hmmm.. hais.. ytd mood swing agn. sumtyms i reali wanna noe wad r guys tinking? i rem tt time... no matter how much i plead and beg him to come back to mi, dere's not even a reply frm him. not a single one. ya, there's one. when i was in the hospital. i will nv eva forget. finally he replied. but its a scoldin from him. suan le. when i can gif up the whole WORLD jus becos of him, when i can dun even contact any of my 6 yrs sistas.. jus becos of u... where r u? when i sincerely wanna be jus pure frens wif u, wad did i get? n now he sae frens? isn't it very unfair to me? hais.. i dunno wad to do le... u may tink tt its unfair to u tt time... but there's alwaes a reason.. haf u ever tot of wads the reason n my position at tt time.. aiya.. suan le.. i so agitated for wad.. its oredi the past le.. he's leading his own life.. i'm oso.. its not important to him n he oso wun get to read wad i type anywae.. so.. jus forget about everything n jus continue wif my life.. wad i wan is jus a pure n simple life. tts all. jus be contented wif wad i haf now.. =))

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

hais. FARK!!!! tis is the second time i type tis entry. kuku jiao~ very angry lehs! wa laoo. about to finish liao lorr. den suddenly gone. -.-arghhH~ alrite forget it.. i will retype the whole entry again..

today work from 2pm till 7pm. supposed to be 7 go off de. but uncle sick. den i haf to extend one hr. but ivy noe i going out.. so i go off at 730.. but nv tell uncle. hahas. =x shhh~den slacked at fareast till 8pm lidat.. wif dar n ter. den we go bugis norr. go n find ah wei. todae her first dae of work. den it rained heavily. wait until 11 + den we took mrt home..

=( dar de hp lost le. lost at arcade jus noww. cos he left it on the table n forgot to take. den we didnt realised it. wait until we realised his hp lost tt time oredi switched off le.ke lian.. haiss. curse tt person hu took the hp. hai.. tink tt im very useless. wanted to console him but jus dun noe how to do so. arghh~ =/ haiss.. den his mood oredi not very gud le.. i still at tt time about to cramp. den end up he haf to take care of mi instead. so ma fan.. y mus i haf tis kinda illness ?
sigh~ n dunno y.. tis few daes i alwaes mood swing.. n throw my temper easily.. i reali dunno y... but i will change.. n i oso promised tt i will treat him better.. n we will make it till the end. =)

oh yaa.. ytd received a msg.. so surprised. i dun even believe in my eyes, still go n check fonebook whether izit he reali msg mi.. hahas! cos i tot i oredi dun exist in his world? hmmm.. maybe he send to the wrong person ba.. aiya dunno la.. hais.

wtf, i oredi forgot wad i typed in my previous entry.. the 2nd entry is diff le.. arghh~ dun type le la. tired. when i tink of wad to sae den i blog. bb!

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Very true .. wahas. =)

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Friday, May 06, 2005

heyy im backkk! wooo.. i lack of sleep.. feels like i going to collapse anytime.. from before i go genting till now.. i haben even sleep well for one night.. without any programs etc . sianss. i reali feel like slping now. later stil hav to go work.. arghhh~ going to collapse le! n omg, i type tis entry until i fall asleep. hahas. den now jus wake up n continue.. yawnss~

the genting trip quite fun. but i lazy to tell u dae by dae wad happened. when i upload the pics den ya'll see urself bahh. but alot of funny tings happened. lol.. wooo! the outdoor theme park fun sia. esp the flying coaster. lol. if i got the chance to get that foto scanned den i show u.... so farni. hahas! n the indoor theme park is so wow..... looks like a fairytale to mi... those fairytale places.. very nice.. cant bear to leave tt place ... hees.

den ytd i sneak to ter hse agn. hahas. go dere slack den slp dere n went home in da morning. lolss. den ytd his hse alot of ppl. den we watched a vcd, didnt noe tt the show is ra wan. LOL. wa laoo eh. very erxin sia. den i c le bth, too erxin le. i went to slp. den onli left ter n the two gers continue watching the show. hahas. cant believe it ... went home at 10 plus in da morning...

hais. mind blank now. dunno wad to sae oredii. will blog again when im free! heh heh. muackk !

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9:17 PM;;

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