and when she speaks
Saturday, July 16, 2005
wad the fark! nabei cheebye. i was like a stupid sitting down dere for one hr plus ALONE! did they even notice tat? wa kaoz. nv tot tt will end up tis wae lors. i swear i will NEVER go clubbing wif u all again. no more next time... wtf lors. i was like a stupid sitting down dere... kip smoking... drinking.. sms... for one hour plus lor. aiya.. suan le laa.. my so call 'sisters' oredi lidat liao... haiz. even e guy tt i just noe today... oso will sae nid to come n acc mi anot. he stay tampines lo.. even sae he help mi pay cab fare la. cos i told him i got no money wif mi. but i told him nvm. argghhh` i bth le. left the club early. my hp batt is EMPTY. no cash. cant find atm. cant find bus stop. cant take cab. u noe wad??? i cant find the bus stop to take NR3. n i WALK ALONE ALL THE WAE FROM BOAT QUAY TO PS! nbcb. n ps oso no NR3 lo. . den continue walking down the road.. following the normal bus route. haiz.. u noe how long is the journey ma... walk lehhhh.. alone.. in the middle of the nite.. its from boat quay to ps lor! walkin myself, feeling very helpless n scared. crying while walking. not becos they did tis to mi lor. is becos i cant find my wae home. i dunno where am i.. until i walk to the 'regency house' a so call hotel.. bo bian.. i reali got no strength to walk le. go in n borrow fone. call kelvin.when i call him he sae he on the wae wan to fetch wei they all.. den i sian diao.. but i bo bian. or else i cant go home le.. so ask him fetch mi first.. while waiting for him, tok to the person tt i borrow fone from. even tt person oso sae lorr. " how can ur frens leave u alone? alamak dunno how u walk from boat quay to here sia.. so far.. midnite le so dangerous.. y ur frens nv follow u.." haiz.. he oso noe how to lidat sae lo. . even terence oso leave mi alone le lor. disappointed. in all of u! when kel reach le i faster get into car. suddenly realised how important he is. if i cant find him, u imagine... m i going to stay at the hotel till morning? die at orchard ? the moment i get into the car cry le. like lil kids lost their wae home den suddenly found their parents tt kind of feeling.. he still will sayang mi. ask mi wad happen. so lucky to haf him. reali v tulan lo. in the end still mus go back to boat quay to fetch dem agn. nv even look at their face. tulan! maybe i should look up the real meaning of 'friends' in dictionary. not jus a sorry can cure everything de lors. if everything can solved by sorry i wun be troubled by so many things now liao. suddenly tink tt i very ke lian.kel drop mi off at my hse bus stop. near senja lrt wan.. so i walk home from bus stop. its about 3am lidat le. reach my hse dwnstair. saw a malay guy. arnd our age. very weird lo.. he is actuali walking away liao le.. but he saw mi he quickly walk towards me. i got a very stong feeling tt smth is wrong liao lo.. faster walk into e lift n quickly close the door. when the door about to close le he run n open e lift. very scared liao lo.. u imagine.. im alone leh.. so late liao.. den the door open le he sae " i show u smth" den he show mi his freakin disgustin private part. WTF! reali v scared... until my legs turn jelly le. den i scream .. den he suddenly kip on luffing n i quickly close the door lift le. hais.. imagine if he come inside the lift... wad will happen to mi..... i reali dunnoo... cry agn.... haiz. tell my mama. den my mama go n call e police. still come and take down statement siaa.. so ma fan... but the feeling is reali cant be described de lor. tis is the first time i encounter tis kinda tings.. i reali cant forget the scenario jus now.. very scary... sobs. no one help mi.. haiii. unlucky dae. i wun forget wad happened jus now. how helpless i am. n how happi are dem enjoying.. u try walking alone from boat quay to ps in the middle of the nite without hp n cash. n u will uds how i feel. swear i wun let it happen agn. dunwan to be a fool agn. freakin angry!
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