and when she speaks
Thursday, September 22, 2005
im back from genting = ] genting was funnnnn~ with dem around can reali make mi luff all the wae . yea n of cos its alot more fun den the previous trip. hee. will upload some pics taken in genting in my next entry... we were like 4 crazy idiots fooling arnd. wakaka. =Dlife sucks to the core. no life. its boring can.. its all about skul .. hai. sucks! went to skul as usual today. . today im a good girl. i went to lecture. hahaas. after skul, home. gr mall eat. yishu hse. cck park eat agn. n home agn. shit man~ tml sports dae. y do nafa haf sports dae. tats lame alrite. sian lor. mus take attendance.. 4get it. be a gud gurl n go la. at yio chu kang summore. wtf. so far. y isit not at cck. actuali wanted to go momo. but no money. den... i can forget it. next time ba.i felt tat im jus a failure. jus a useless moron. dun ask mi y i said tis.. i reali dun see anything gud in me. i wan to change into a better person. i dunwan to be who i am now. i hate being who i am. cos i simply sucks. feel tt im jus wasting tis world's resources. i wan to change.better attitude.better temper.dun be so sensitive.learn how to take criticisms.accept the reality.be independent.be more filial.quit smoking.be more patient.forgive n forget.dun take tings too hard.have determination.there's so many bad points in me.. its reali time for mi to change. i dunwan to be called as "blur" anymore. i jus hate it when ppl sae tat. hopefully i can do all of the above. believe me i will change. i dunwan to be a useless moron in tis world. yea~ sumtyms i'm actuali not as useless as wad ppl tink. jus tat ppl wun noe wad im tinking . actuali no one can even catch wad i'm tinking all e tym.. not even him.
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11:21 AM;;
Monday, September 05, 2005
yea man... wahahas.. my blog seh gor liao.. was busy for the past few weeks.. very busy sia.. busy bout skul work.. when did berlin become so guai n do hmwk everydae? hahas. woo man.. i changed! hahas. didnt slp properly for the few weeks. chiong project all the wae. din slp at all.. so tis few daes i have to amend back. hahas.didnt even come online sia.. MIA for so long.. now its holidae week. darn harpie. hohos. 2 weeks holidae.. and next week im going to genting agn.! freyohs~ tis time it will sure be fun. alot better den the last time i went dere. =) me, ah kel, ah lin and ah shu going onli.. den the second dae den lin mama come and join us. huhu~ lalala.. gud mood gud mood. hahas. paiseh.. sound abit exaggerating.. cos today in a gud mood. oso dunno y .. hmmm.. yea man. i passed all my subjects. hehes. ytd went to ah ma hse. kel came over to fetch mi den we go makan at cck wif lin n shu oso. n wif my baobei. hahas. mafan sia.. carry a dog walk here n dere. after tt put baobei back to my hse n we went to mt faber.. =)past few daes da yi ma visit me.. so wasnt on a very gud mood.. so sorry for my attitude. =/ hmm.. felt so guilty about wad happened tt dae. sorry boy.. didnt do it on purpose. hope u dun put it in ur hart. promise i wun do it agn. wun play such games anymore k? sorry for makin u angry.. muacks. =) i noe he wun get to see it anywae. but i jus wan to sae out .. so tt i will feel better. i reali gonna quit smoking.. my whole family is damn broke now.. a big hole in our pocket sia.. got money den smoke la.. no money dun smoke. go genting i haf to use my own money. no more money le. dad's business oso cmi oredi.. whole family like going to fall.. even my bro oso broke.. till e extend tt he haf to quit smoking too. imagine he smoke for how many yrs oredi. haii.. now i uds y ppl can commit suicide becos of money. money can reali make ppl suffer. how u gonna survive w/o $$ ? i tink i'm having slight depression sia. ppl see i alwaes luff for nth.. like no worries.. but recently at home little bit nia den cry.. oso duno cry for wad sia.. stress over skul work.. money... n personal tings.. hai.. now no more maid le. tts even worse.. increase my stress. tt dae too stress until i call my boi n cry... wad happen to mi sia.. den.. there's one ting tt i kept tinking.. all the time.. i cant stop tinking bout tis question.. i dunno whether im being a paranoid or wad la.. tink its a phobia... afraid of history repeating itself agn.. but i tink it wun la.. i tink too much le.. whenever he sing tt song infront of mi i will get so pissed off. aiyaa... when can we get rid of tt small little stone in our hart.? i hope i can help u get rid of urs n u can get rid of mine.. i hope i am not tinking too much.. shall end here. muacks~
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