yeah i finished my zi jing zhi dian. DAMN FREAKING NICE k! omg.. JR reali v cute lo! den see he cry i oso cry. he cry like very ke lian lidat. lols. tis show remind me of terence sia. duno y. =x lols.. gino oso v cool lo. i like tis type of guys. haha. see tis show duno cry for how many times. keep crying de lehz.

haha. very diu lian. in front of him i oso cry. he still pass me tissue sia. damn funny. its touching la.. y the father die sia.. her father die i cry until like someone i noe die lidat. lol. *envy* how i wish im xiaoying.... anywae, she sucks. she cry at every single disc. so many tears for her to cry meh. wa lao.. see le wan to slap her sometimes. but sometimes v kelian oso. haha.. im alwaes so excited when i sae bout tis show.

hmmm, skul reopen in 4 more daes. duno wan sad or happi lo. hahas. happy cos finally i wun be tat bored.. sad cos i mus tink of wad to wear. wa lao no clothes to wear le lo. wanna buy new clothes again. i saw some pictures of MOS. damn nice k! i cant wait to go dere! got retro.. got pure... omg.. i wanna go dere. but no clubbing kakees. worst is no one send me home. haii.. nvm.. next time i 'll bring weapon out. in case tat pervert appears again.

anyone wanna go clubbing can ask me go. but make sure u stay at either cck or bp. haha. so can share cab or else i pay till siao lo.

tml dunno how. hai.. so ma fan! later i go kill his officer den no one will call n spot check le. hahas. i dunn wanna be alone!! i wan his accompany. =( v long nv drink le. feel like drinking... very happy... i reali dun have those feeling of wanting to smoke le. although sometimes heart itchy or got some money to buy.. but mus be determine! cannot ban tu er fei. hahas. i tink i din smoke for few months le. li hai ba... hope when i go skul they dun tempt me.. my ex smoking kakees. haha...

i tink there's a monster in my heart. and i can reali change FAST. newae, dun wanna tink or care bout anything anymore. hoho.. god can see wad im doing. i didnt do anything or sae anything bad. god uds how i feel... hee.

LINSTERS all come tat wan.. wa lao.. sian lo.. actuali going out wan.. but all sian diao le.. my mum very wu liao lo. duno wad i sae den she sae izit i wanna let e whole world noe i come tat wan. crazy.. i tink she's a crazy woman la.. 40 plus liao act like 4 plus lidat. lao wan tong lors. tat dae she watch cartoon lo. den i inside room, she in living room. suddenly sing old macdonald had a farm..... -_____- stil chick chick. LOL. i bet u'll luff when u see it. siao cha bor. cant stand her. hohos. k la, go slp le. tired.. nite!

HAI

going crazy. memories haunting me like crazy. lonely.

hmmm. xmas din go anywhere. jus to causewae. n his hse. tats all. haha. nvm, everydae is a normal day to me. no need to celebrate anything. even if its birthday. there's no such need to celebrate anymore. haha. life is getting so simple. jus eat n sleep can ald.

so meaningless sia...............

hai. u cant feel it.

my boy oso dun uds. i noe u are here wif me. but wad i wan is...... forget it.

stop it man. i should cheer up. ming tian hui gen hao =D at LEAST still got one kailin and one eileen.

thats all folks.

was browsing thru zss web. SUDDENLY let me see tis pic. and in tis skul U... wa lao.......
-cant be described- n my vision blurred in jus 3 secs. sec skul daes are the best. haii



scroll to the right...

memories can only be kept. u cant replay it.

i was looking forward so much to countdown of xmas. and celebrating it tgt wif my boy. BUT... now all gone le .. tell me where shld i go on xmas eve. aiya at hm watch tv n countdown wif my dog suan le! all becos of his stupid probation. argh! damn sad... wait FEW MORE YRS BA! i alwaes tink tat celebrating xmas wif ur love wan is the most xingfu wan. aiyah suan le la.

hehs. =)

went shopping today. alone. hahas. abit zi bi right.. no laa. cos lin cannot alwaes go out ma. so i go out alone. jus shopped at far east. to my surprise, i bought alot of tings! haha. okie la actuali not reali ALOT la. but its the money matter. haha. nvm la, happi jiu hao. mus pamper myself sometimes too. n i jus reached far east for about like... 10 min? den i bought le. less den an hour i tink i bought alot.

n suddenly he called me. ask me whre am i all tis. haahaa. i knew it! still bluff me sae he still working. u shake ur butt i noe wad u wan to do ald hor still wan to bluff me. haha. after tat shop tgt lo. hais. spent to nearly 200 leh. hmmm, saw ce n cindy jus nw. duno is dem. until i go up escalator den he told me is dem. actuali wanted to wave but firstly so long le... i tink abit awkward le. like duno wad to sae? n they din saw me cos i going up le.. haha.

went to radioactive. i tot susie not working dere le. but she's still there. missed her so much. awwww. i miss radioactive LAH! working dere is damn damn fun kaes. my boss all very good de. hmmm, sian. miss uncle joe too. hope will get to see him one dae. he is a lao wan tong. =X hahaha.

jus nw played fatal frame agn. its getting fun! but head-cracking too. wa lao the ghost lyk ju on lidat. modern ghosts dun use floating ald. i tink all of them crawl. dun u realise.? haha. -_-

tis thurs meeting ter go shopping agn. dead man.. i need MONEY! Wooooo... my jianhuo LIN's bd is reaching. heh heh. n its xmas eve too. but will celeb earlier. cant wait for xmas. sure gonna be fun. lyk those past few yrs. hee. tis yr finally i haf my loved one to acc me. =) celebrating xmas wif ur loved one is the sweetest! muacks.

clubbing clubbing. i wan more clubbing! ERICA! DUN CHEAT ON ME HOR. U SAE WAN TO GO BLACK BEFORE SKUL REOPEN WAN. i will rem ur words. u back on ur words u gonna get it from me when skul starts k. dun forget we're still in the same class. hiak hiak. -evillaughs-

and... HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHERINE! u're still my beloved sister.

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ITS PICTURES TIME.







5566 concert.










photo taking sessions again. =p


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haha. look at all of his face. very funny de.



esp tis wan~! so NIANG. hahas

back. few daes nv blog le. hmm..

went to 5566's concert on 17. thanks to eileen or else i wun get to see that concert. actually planned to go out wif my boy shopping de. hahas. when i was about to prepare eileen called me n ask me. hmm.. n summore can get it at 25 bucks. so its worth it ba. in e end i throw my boy alone. haha. =x

i can sae tat the concert is great man. their concert is alwaes so special. alwaes so different from e others. renfu is alwaes so adorable. hee. starting me n eileen tan kay siao. go n seat other ppl place. haha. cos we sit tat place cannot see at all. den after awhile we go find eileen. n dunno go got one aunty watch till half dunwan c le. gif me n eileen tan tickets sia. summore vip seats leh. den we go see if the place is gud anot. but eileen cannot come in n join us. cos only 2 tics. den cannot so bad leave my dear eileen alone. so we went back to our original seats. hmmm, overall 5 stars for tis concert.

after concert we took eileen tan's fren's car back. haha. cos no money. thks to him too. or else dunno how we going to come back. hmm, missed the eileenS so much. so long nv go out tgt le. finally get to haf some time wif them. hope we can go out often! missed our sec skul daes. hee.

ytd go his hse watch vcd. today rot at home. go funeral. feel like going shopping tml. i wanna shop till i drop! n skul going to reopen le. i haven shop yet. skul reopen have to fan over wad to wear agn. hai.. shit sia..

finally we haf our hart to hart talk. tat dae i almost go bonkers. cry till i die suan le.. hope wad he sae is true ba. but after talking, den there is improvements le. rem, PROVE IT!

yawns. its sleeping time.

tml den upload pics. tata~

my life simply sucks to the core. no LIFE man. at home be taitai too much. shake leg shake until my leg cramp ald. haha.. skul reopen oso good la. i cant wait to know more new frens and learn more tings about MM. mm rules. i want to be the best.

haha. today i made pizza myself. i rmb last time i made for eileen n her bro . lol.. they still sae nice leh. but i forgot wad ingredients le. =x but today's wan oso not bad la. and okay im been name as the MAID at home. even if im the maid oso mus give me my salary ma. wa lao. . everything i bao ga liao den no $$. im money faced. i need money... so if u're willing to gimme money i dun mind being a maid. haha.

wanted to find some jobs wan. but only left less den a month. den forget it la. tat time when i jus started hols wanted to find a job too. but who will wan to hire someone for 2 months only.. hai. i wanna be a tai tai. i wan money to spend...

we're spending lesser time tgt ald... bobian. money is alwaes more important. no money how to survive. hmmm.. i tot of tis ting for v long ald.. n ya there's a point in wad lin said. love reali cant be compared. n the love u gif to different ppl will be different kind of love. if its the same... den its replacement ald. so i cannot compare anymore. stop tis tinking of mine pls. and i tink in everyone's heart, there is alwaes a "special someone" ya? i have tis special someone too but tat doesnt mean tat i still love him rite. so berlin, dun tink too much!

pictures time.!











she's alwaes so cute.


and i photoshop-ed one photo. tadaaa!


BEFORE

and......


AFTER!

can see the difference? aha.. before is original me. n after is a after plastic surgery me. with thinner lips. cos i tink maybe look nicer wif thinner lips ? and shorter teeth. cos i dunwan rabbit teeth. lol.. jus trying out. and i make away some of my pimples. =x ahaha..

today's entry gonna be a long one...

well, reali very bored.. wad else can i do at home man. woke up at 4 plus today. haha. but i slept at 6 am ytd... im suffering from insomnia. alwaes having sleepless nights. very tong ku leh. mus eat sleeping pills. ytd i oso eat sleeping pills den easier to slp. its xin li zuo yong or wad? i can lie dwn dere for 3 hrs but i reali cant slp sia. hais.

hmmm, few daes before smth happened btw us. reali v sad.. the feeling is...... cannot be described la. feel pain. if only there is no existence of "TAT PERSON" den i will not feel so miserable? i dunno. i wan the best from u. or rather dunwan anything from u. ok? but we're back to normal agn la..

yishu went into army le.. cut botak. so cute. haha. dun worry i will acc lin de~ hmmm..

den ytd went out wif boy n his sis. his parents fetch us dere. haha so good... actuali wanted to bring his sis watch the king kong wan. but haben start yet. so watched SAW 2. i give 5 stars for tis movie. damn nice... its VERY grose n violent okie. kailin, u will LOVE tis show man. hahah. i watched saw 1 before.. but 2 is nicer.. haha. i can sae tat ppl, u wun regret watching tis movie. .

watched at cine, after movies, walked around at heeren, den to taka. n waited for his parents fetch us go makan. while waiting window shop at taka first. and den... i saw the mickey hp! right in my eyes. very nice lor. but too bad the functions not good enuff. n go see the motorola v3 oso. wa lau damn nice can! hu can gimme as xmas present? hahas. i lurve it to bits. wohoho. hope i can haf it. but i dunwanna sell my 7610. its my precious!

after everything go his hse play fatal frame den went hm le. hmm.. tml going to bugis wif lin. i wanna buy bottoms. sick of wearing the same old ting. i wanna change~~ yeah. tats all folks.




taken at my mum's shop. BORED!





black skin. wahaha.

OKAY i noe im being very zi lian here.

where have all of them gone? from alot to 1. how pathetic... i used to haf alot of frens... i used to go thru thick n thin wif some of them. used to go everywhere tgt wif dem... anywae, im not refering to --those that u're thinking now. i dun wanna mention--. i dun need them at all thank u. be frens still ok la, sisters? u wait ok ?

used to be with audrey la, terence, katherine etc.. now all gone their own wae.. i reali missed those life man. missed night life wif audrey they all. k box till morning 6am, ton-ing at my hse, watching vcd tgt, shop, nv go home n go to athena hse instead. get scolded tgt n lots more man. very memorable..

den wif ter, kpool, stay over at his hse, daidee, n esp sitting outside the rooftop n tok! call him n cry.. <-- haha i got my reasons. whenever i cry he will not console me but cry tgt wan. haha.. dunno y oso. n everytime play tat stupid tarot cards. wahaha. aiya, u all wun noe how fun it is la.. too much ald.

when im working in radioactive, almost everydae sure got diff people come find me wan. den acc me in shop. now? i tell u i can leave my hp dere for 10 daes but no frens will msg me or call me. except lin onli.. the rest all die ald.. haha...

anywae, till now i still didnt regret tis path tat i choose. kinda miss those times.... when i have lots of frens.. nvm la... i shouln't tink so much.. im ald very contented wif wad i haf now. i haf my boy. lin n shu. i onli got dem le.

BUT. if onli i can keep those worthy ones by my side.... -sigh-












i am s e r i o u s l y sad. =(

shag... i've been rotting at home for DAES sia. very boring ah! at home oso nth to do. onli can slp, com, n xbox. damn bored. and i tink im crazy la. haha. play need for speed too much. till i dream of myself racing! lols. n fatal frame oso. my bro brought back quite afew games. hmmm.. tat dae my mum's bf sae i grow fat abit le. omg... its time to stop eating so much man. wanna jian fei!

tis few daes i cut down ALOT of food. esp junk food. haha. i love junk food. but for the sake of not growing any fatter, i shld stop. hee... santa make me slim dwn PLS. muahahas.

aiya.. tis few daes feeling VERY down. dunno y oso. ji tao no mood. restless. feel like going shopping alone. haha. u mus be tinking tat i am crazy.. actuali shopping alone is not crazy la. jus tt its abit bored onli ma. no one to tok to. see my mood first la. going to rent those drama n see le. its HELL BORED at home. ytd went picasso to cut my hair. FINALLY. hahaa..

wa lao eh NAFA sucks la. nv tell us our results. when we going to report to skul. wad class wad time wad course oso dunno. wtf. "for further enquiries pls email to nafa@blabla" its BULLSHIT! useless wan lor. i emailed them for dunno how long ald? nv reply wan.. hell to ya.


taken before i slp*

haha. i look damn old wif tis hair. i did not perm la. i jus bun up my hair for few hrs n when i was about to slp i let down my hair n turn out to be like tis. look like perm ma so take a pic. haa. tat means i cant perm my hair. still prefer straight. my eye one big one small. -laughs-

hmmm.. i was bored tat dae so edited photos. there's 2 version. my photoshop skills gone le dun noe how to edit le.. cos its oso hell long since i edit photos. haha. i will go n train up agn. hehehe.



coloured version...

and....



tis wan looks elegant n more comfortable.


``` how long will it last.