i tink tt im beyond hope.

hais. dun ask me y la. PLS. so sick n tired when i blog bout smth or put as my msn nick n ppl ask me WHY.

there's some things tt i REALI cant forget.

wtf am i doing ?

cb, im farking hopeless!!

i shld jus bang the wall n die. hahahahahahhahahahahaaaaaaaa

mind is in a whirl.

i feel so jealous! fuck u!

stoptinkingberlin. wake up wake up.

feeling dwn now.

ymusitcomebackagain

slap myself.

god, take away THOSE 'tings' from me. PLS.

ijcfu. =( =( =(

ber is getting bored.

sat;
final destination 3. no storyline. but its grose. kinda boring. i tot it will be nice.
he bought a jacket for me. but i regret choosing tt jacket. why the hell will i choose tat ? lols. i dun tink i will wear it. its damn thick n bulky. after movie, went back home. wad a boring dae. n guess wad did i do when i reach home? i sang karaoke at home alone. haha. how idiotic can i be. life's too boring. there's nth i can do!

sun;
i seriously cant rmb wad i did tt dae.

mon;
went to skul to hand in my web design. after tt slacked around, n shopping. i din reali shopped la. jus bought a tee and a anna sui eye glitter. but i love it! =) shopped wif erica, lian, derek n yt. but yt left first cos he's meeting his fren. wif kim siew arnd, life is nv boring! lols. yeah he's back wif us again. hee.. after shopping jus slacked at the mac outside shaw tower. nth much la actualli.

today.... as usual, another boring dae! i slept till 3 plus n stupid yt... today is tues not wed! lols. msged me n ask me wad time we're going to club. hahaha. but dun worry. mai gan jiong la... tml can enjoy ald. haha.. u better stay awake or else how u going to send me home?? =) we still haven decide on which club to go. cos we wan free flow!! lol.. no chinablack pls. its boring. any clubs to intro? yeah my darling iqbal will be going! =D =D =D heee...

a sweet dream i have. =) if only he can be as sweet as he appeared in my dream. but thats impossible! n there's no wae he will tok to me again. kinda miss him. but why will i miss an idiotic person lyk him ? =x lol.. true wad. ya i noe im VERY fickle minded.. hu cares. i can share my love to so many ppl. can u? hahas. 2 yr back........

good old times.

ALL I WANT IS A BOY LYK U!!!!

head feeling heavy. not in e mood to do anything.

im free from everything! assessments overrr. time to rest n play hard. but jus for a week. date me out pls. =)

ytd played cs in student lounge to pass time. wif erica, yt n yisheng(duno hw to spell la). head to makan w/o ys after collecting back our work. to jack's place makan, bugis to shop. sorry yt, for makin u feel so bored! haha. kept on trying clothes n he kept on waiting. n we suddenly got the hweeling to take neoprints so we dragged yt in. he refused at first, but yt how can u resist two beautiful ladies taking pics wif u? u shld feel honoured! haa =x

luffing all the wae. rmb our lame joke. *popZ!* hahahahahhaa. stupid me.

heh, i didnt come back wif empty hand. bought 2 tops n a shorts. im broke la. stuck in e bikini shop for like half an hr to 45 mins. poor yt. sorry! hee.. still didnt manage to get a nice wan.

all feeling tired. head to LJS for a drink n sit dwn tok cock. yea, rmd our date on wed nite k? u all decide where to go la. as long as it mus be ladies nite can ald. =) ytd all on mood to groove n drink. but too bad she's meeting her bf. so all headed home. im stuck at home today. no programs. sadded. mayb will meet up wif my irritating boy later. shall see how la. end here.. bye all.

i jus come across the webby that i did for yenkai years ago. lol... now den i noe im so sweet to him in the past. hahas! kinda miss those past times. so memorable.. he's someone i'll definately remember in my life. hee.. at least we're still friends nw. unlike me n the others. tok to dem nv reply.. see me like transparent. wa lao.. bth!


memories are alwaes the sweeeeeeeetest.

no skul today.. so i slept till 3 plus. lols. shiok man~ ytd slept at 6am again.. haha.. tok cock wif kim siew at msn.. bth him.. later i luff till cramp again den u noe! i finally finished my web design. but i scared its not up to her standard.. wanna get high grades but i tink its diff la..

hmmm.. im starting to miss him ald. how ? den the other one how? if i do tis den the other one tot i playing wif him how? argh.. dun care bout anything ald la. wads done cannot be undone. but y do i haf tis kinda feelings. hmm.. u cannot blame me cos my heart jus cant stick to one person la.. i duno y. hais..

so shitty.. my life sucks. nth happening.. not lyk last time.. alwaes so happening! lols.. no more night life for now.. i wanna go out.. but no one date me. hahaha.. nvm i wun die going out alone.. but tt will be boring for me. lyk zi bi lidat. lols. dun care la!

ytd we were mentioning bout going to genting. haha.. wa lao keep going to genting sia. i wanna go KL! but erica nv go genting b4.. den we tot of going genting for 2 daes den after tt go KL. wa.. shiok.. i wanna shop! long time nv shop le.

k la.. my mind is blank out of sudden. duno wad to blog ald.. enjoy photos! takecare ppl.


a rose from kim siew!! =D




Me and my sweetheart at starpub! hahahahaha


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freakin tired. didnt slp at all. rushing my lessons in thinking last nite. worst ting is i din bring the assessment for pre press. fuck lors. i duno is todae.. den yt acc me home to take again. damn shag... but so sweet rite got ppl acc. haha.. today skul jus sucks. went to derek's hse wif yt after skul.. haha.. he cheer up my dae again. pox pox pox.

everything jus sucks.

n i tink tat u're very contradicting lor. ur colour reali change faster den a chameleon sia. 5 mins ago u felt sorry... 5 mins later u're cursing at everyone.. but tink again. if u reali didnt do anything wrong den y mus u be so sensitive. wads makes u tink tt everyone is gossiping about u ? did u hear tt urself.. ? anywae those problems... im not involved. so dun add more burden to me. n u REALLY got the cheek to tok to me in that wae n that manner after cheating me ya. dun tink tt remaining silence means u can climb on top of my head and shit. if we reali wanna condemn u, y will we still take the initiative to talk to u first, ask u to join us? n why will i FUCKING WAN TO HELP U BRING BACK UR IN DESIGN ASSESMENT WHEN NO ONE EVEN WANS TO TAKE IT FOR U? its up to u to tink la ok... u are reali v contradicting.. if u tink we guys should fuck off, den wad for u still sae u feel sorry n another min later u're blogging here n scoldin us lyk nobody's biz.. i seriously duno wad u're tinking la ok. anywae its not my problem la. i dun care at all... u said u did nth wrong right.. so tt means by cheating on ME is something very right la.. n putting ur words at others mouth is oso very right... oh.....

wow.... indeed u are VERY different from other guys. ( thats wad u told me ) INDEED YOU ARE. thanks for showing me how different u are from them ok ? i realli appreciate! n lastly... im not born out for u to yell at ok. dun fucking think tat when i said i nv blame u den u can SHOUT AT ME AS AND WHEN U LIKE.

a very enriching experience i learned in nafa term 2. =) and thats the only thing i learn in nafa.

in this game, u're not fit to be a player. if ya wanna be a player, pls learn more before playing. tis game is too boring for me n u're not even fit to be opponent. :)

jus changed my blogskin. arghh, suddenly on clubbing mood now. was on fone wif erica n YT ytd.. din noe we chatted till 6am. lols.. power rite.. n i slept for 12 hrs.. till 6pm today.. damn tired... im meeting erica early tml to skul.. help her wif photoshop n going to find tt stupid MC cheng.. he better approve my work or else i gonna kill him.. waste so much of my money printing. duno y he suddenly change. he wasnt lyk tis on term 1.. THICK AND SOLID. muahahas.

im so bored!! feeling hungry.. can u believe i only eat one packet of maggie tt last me for 2 daes? omg.. actually its becos my hse got nth to eat.. den lazy to go out. hahas. aiyah.. can diet oso la.. last time everydae got ppl packet for me wan lo.. now no more. lols. nvm la.. mus be independent! oh ya.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ah fat! ytd his bdae... he still remembers me! im so happy when he saes he still reembers me.. cos i tot he hate me.. lol. i miss him HELL LOTS. =)

damn stress ah!!! assessments, assignments, assessments, assignments. fuck! nvm jus tolerate for tis week.. after tis week..... wala wala!! im free ald! i wanna go tanning lei.. i tink my skin colour sucks. haha.. lin, free to spare me some of ur time go tanning wif me???? hee..

hmmm.. im quite disapointed lo.. u said u are diff from other guys, u asked me to trust u. n now.... wad u did to show me? im not making a big fuss. its not tt i dunwan to admit my mistakes. but did i do anything wrong? YT got eyes to see oso.. wad actually happened tt dae ? if im at fault, DEFINATELY i will apologise. n im not pushing all the blame on u ok.. u tink about it urself ba. wads wrong wif me lying on the table? n i dun see any guys looking at me on tt dae.. seriously, if u tink im embarassing u or u hope tt i can leave the pub earlier jus becos u dunwan me to bump into ur ex gf, jus tell me. why mus turn one big round... i dun mind... and since in ur heart, im those kinda person WHO takes u for granted.... SO BE IT. i myself noe wad kinda person i am can ald.. my conscience is clear.. duno la.. dunwan wanna sae anymore.. shall stop here...

i wanna club!

dun ask me whther i passed my theory anot. cos i didnt go at all. haha. cos im lazy to go to 2 places la.. i wanted to go wif jack n yongteck to pub. but my test starts at 645 at batok. n the pub is at outram.. so its v troublesome to run 2 places la. not in the mood oso. i wanted to go for the test de. but they keep poloso me. den.... lols. i will go n book again la. but if i went dere ytd cfm can see him dere de..

cos ytd i called him.. n he told me he's at bbdc having lessons. he told me he purposely book on 17 cos he noe im going dere.. so sweet hor. lol.. hope he's still doing well ba. he started drinking again.. but i cant stop him oso la. only can ask him to take care... he asked me tt question again... but i duno how to ans him. wad i can only sae is.. sorry...

i couldnt believe the 3 of us could actualli finish up the whole bottle of absolute vodka lor.. so jialat. n its lyk before 11 we finish the whole bottle ald. n im not drunk ytd ok. until now i still noe wad i did lo. hais. i dun uds y we mus quarrel everydae....

i came back den lie flat on my bed ald. den tok to my mum awhile... went to vomit again. n i duno how i fell asleep. ytd actualli at the pub i ald vomitted. summore on my jeans sia. but i dun dare to sae. haha! tts y im in the toilet for so long.. cleaning up the toilet. lols..

i feel so guilty for treating my mum tis wae.. sorry mummy. ytd she called me n i shouted at her. cos im feeling v irritated. she still ask me y i so pekchek. but i scold her.. i told her if she dun hang up the fone nw i sure scold her. when i went back she still ask me wad happened.. y i so pekchek.. den jus nw she asked me whether i watch i not stupid too ald anot.. den i told her not yet.. no one wants to watch wif me... she ask me whether wan to watch wif her later anot.. after she knock off.. den she acc me go watch... when she sae this i feel so touched.. now i noe.. when no one is there for u, ur family will alwaes be there! though most of the times we're quarreling , but i noe she meant well for me.. but too bad i cant go wif her cos i haf to finish all my shitty hw.. arghh.. its hard for her to ask me out or spare me some of her time... i miss the chance again.. hai..

i hate going home... going back to a home where no one is around... only me n my dog... i hate to haf a broken family... i envy so much when i see my friends parents tgt... n go out in a family... im not being kiddy to tink tis wae... cos i alwaes hope to enjoy tis kinda love since young.. hai.. they will nv uds how i feel towards dem.. tts the reason y i dun lyk to stay at home.. but they will nv uds.. they tot i love to play.. love not coming back home...

so stress la! i feel so lonely!!

wooo... its fridae again.. starting to dislike fridays le.. cos i cant see my frens.. n im gonna spend my lonely weekends alone... no where to go.. no frens to acc.. haha.. i dun gif a shit. miss lin sia. long time nv meet out.. shop tgt. den k box etc. now i'll be a light bulb if i join her. aha...

poor derek kena chicken pox. hope u'll recover soon k. without u, life will be miserable for us! we'll miss u! haha... today's lesson suck lo. i feel lyk we're alwaes going to skul for nth. my dad lyk pay the skul fees for me to smoke, eat, play. tts all. wtf is tis skul doing sia!

im still so sleepy.. i alwaes never get enough of sleep wan la.. today i went home after skul. good gurl rite ? immediately lie flat on my bed when i reach home. slept from 2 plus till 8. damn tired lo.. i finished my hw early today.. so rare.. haha.. got nth to blog about.. but i feel so bored rite now... so come n kill time!

be it friends or lovers... accept me for who i am! if ya cannot accept the wae i am, den fuck off. cos i dun lyk to change for the sake of others.. i jus love being me... so dun ever try to criticise me or change me... dun even sae bout controlling. i will nv let myself be tied up! never... =))

alright... time to slp now.. close ur eyes~ tml will be a boring dae for me again.. n wish me good luck for tml! i dun care wads the result.. but hopefull its positive la.. laugh all u wan if its negative.. i dun CARE~!!! nites ppl.

hais.. feel so pissed off for the whole dae.. cos im ald feeling v tired... i reali din sleep well for many daes ald.. plus some other things happened la. i dun wanna care ald... first time quarrel wif ppl on valentines lo. n i duno y i feel tis wae... nothing can describe how angry im feeling jus nw. n i duno y i'm so angry.. reali duno y lo.. as in... if its as a fren, den wad for i get so angry ? sometimes i reali duno how to trust guys.. feeling kinda sad nw...

nvm.. hmm.. today received one blue rose.. but gif for fun wan la... thanks kim siew~! hahs.. feel so paiseh.. though its only one but its nice~! but i dun lyk roses wan la... i jus ask for fun cos no one gave me blue roses before... den everytime play play only ma.. so i ask for it lo... he's jus my gud buddy!

i tink im lyk a kid sia.. went to arcade jus nw. jus nw actuali feeling v terrible de. but go arcade den i ok le. hahs... me n erica play lyk siao lidat.. reali lyk small kid lo. still shout.. lols. but being wif her is so fun.. alwaes cheer me up. see her face can smile ald. hah..
so shag~! reali feel lyk sleeping nw.... but i haven do hw yet.. but i reali got no mood to do.. feel lyk skipping skul. but no time ald... cant skip... i seiously need some rest... if one dae i suddenly collapse dun feel surprise.

hais. feel lyk crying sia... from tt matter till nw i nv even tear... pls make me cry... one time can ald! pls!

i'll stop here... no mood..

I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall fast, because every time I fall in love... it never seems to last.

felt so tired and stressed. my assessments is reali piling up like a mountain ald.. tt dae do my in-design until almost cry lo.. i reali feel so tired.. everydae only sleep for lyk 3 hrs only.. den ytd slept at 6 plus.. i duno is ter tell me wan. today 11 plus wake up le.. later going to eileen's bdae.. come back i haf to rush my assessments. tink i wun be sleeping early again..

mum tell me tml going to cdans to eat.. hai.. sian lor. i wanna do my work lah! my schedule is so packed for tis week.. n i gonna spend my valentines at home.. do hw suan le..

so shitty.. hate hangovers.. feeling giddy.. stomachache n oso feel lyk vomiting. sucks lor.. ytd jus becos of my stupid mouth. haha.. cos we bet on smth.. its actuali only a song lor. den i still sae until sut sut. confirm correct.. den he sae if i din guess correctly mus drink 10 cups. wa lao... plus we play poker. loser drink one cup. one shot lor.. n its lyk for the 6 or 7 rounds i kept losing... v fast high ald. haha.. he's even worse.. only drink 5 cups he cannot make it ald. hahaha. wanna sit at the rooftop but he dun allow me. =( thats our place filled wif memories... but nvm la.. cant imagine if i cant walk straight.. n u all wun see me anymore.. lols. i noe wad happened at the start.. but i totally no impression on wad happen after tt. he told me i keep on kaobei. sing non stop.. den he feel so irritated n went down to sleep at mattress. hai......

we chatted alot.. im so sorry... i feel so bad for treating u tis wae.. i reali hope we can be lyk last time... i kept tinking of that sentence he told me... so sweet............ thanks a million..

arghhh.... bitch! slap me please. one time can ald!

thats y i sae gurls are fan jian. when tt guy loves u wholeheartedly u take it for granted.. whhen he dun love u anymore den u start to feel awkward n saes y he dun love me anymore.. haha.. shitty ass.

feel v terrible nw.. heavy head.. head got baluku! stupid lor go n knock on the wall..

assessment time!

AI WO BIE ZOU~!!

tat slut..... BTH HER. fuck off please.

feeling so sian... but i wun let my tings affect my frens de.. so dun worry. hee. my frens are alwaes here wif me. feel so lucky to haf known dem.. they're so fun.. alwaes cheer up my dae. now i got motivation to go skul everydae le. hee.. assesment week is reaching. hai.. gonna suffer from sleepless nights again i tink..

jus nw when im on e bus.. listening to my mp3.. den i hear tis song.. 'mei na me ai ta' . suits me alot.. the whole song completely decribing hw i feel nw. lyk specially write to me wan sia.. n its v true.. n from tis song, i've got all my unknown answers. a nice song...

actually im reali not feeling v good.. but tis time like very difficult for me to cry.. i duno y oso.. lyk duno hw to cry ald lidat. nvm.. i wun cry so easily for guys now. =)

guys.... all so typical. tgt for awhile, den fuck n throw. bastards lo... duno whether now still can find guys tt is not lidat wan anot.. i mean.. flirt arnd its ok la... dun haf to treat gurls tis wae rite.. anywae.... i duno y got tis phobia for guys. i mean.. lyk reali get into a serious relationship... sometimes jus feel lyk ........ duno hw to sae oso la. but since they treat us lyk shits... y should we treat them lyk gold..? tot we puppets... im not as stupid as last time ald. sacrifice la, tolerance n endurance la.. they dun gif a fuck on me i still worship him lyk god la... nono. no more .. anywae i not pin pointing at anyone.. i jus saying bout guys. i tink there's some evil ting tt corrupted my brain.... duno y my tinking change so much sia... nw mus be materialistic. =) NO MONEY NO TALK.

valentines dae.... haha.. i tink every valentines dae im fated to be ......... lols. standard wan. i duno how many yrs of valentines i celeb wif fren ald. wadeverrr. i lyk cannot ah ???? so hu's gonna gif me my present? haha.. jus gif me money will do.. =) i wanna go marie france!

i reali tink im too fat... no matter how much i try cutting dwn oso tweeny winy bit nia.. hai... so sad. if i haf one and only wish now.. i wun wish for ANY other ting else except to slim dwn n to maintain. tt will be my happiest dae of my life! lols. k nth to blog le. i dun tink i noe wad im saying.. starting to yi wu lun ci le. slpin soon. nites.

there's no 'forever love'

so boring. today lyk went to skul for nth... hahas. go sit awhile den go eat le. n slack all e wae. me,erica, jack n derek went to ps tcc slack n tok cock. tt derek reali damn FUNNY. bth him lor.. luff till my intestine burst. fun being wif dem la..

n.. hais.. lost of words la..

im so bored! tml gonna stay back in skul do hw..... hmmm, ytd chatted wif terence. bth him lors. keep on suan me.. hey boy, im not cheap ok! wad open leg sia. slap u! hahas. anywae, miss him lah... friday going to his hse n drink. his dad v cute sia.. sae mus wait for me den can lao yu sheng tgt. i oso nv eat tat de.. den its lyk his father keep asking when im going.. haha.. i noe he miss me la.. lols. den ppl keep asking i oso will paiseh wan ma.. maybe staying overnight at his hse la.. cos after drinkin i sure no mood to go home wan lo. terence....... im comin! i noe u cant wait to see me right.. =D oh man... valentine's is reaching......

=( =( =(

i tink i noe my own feelings nw.

i tink i noe wad to do ald.. but not sure whether to do it anot...

wadever u wanna sae, u name it, u call it. i dun mind..

but im still confused. tell me wad to do...

hai. stil got a big pile of hw to do..so shitty. cant even take a brk..

realli not in a gud mood sia.. argh!

YAWNS!

damn damn damn damn tired... totally worn out man~ didnt slp for 2 daes ald. got la.. but its like reali few hrs only. 2 daes add up not even 5 hr i tink.. wth.. but nvm.. at least i win money! hahahaha. so shiok.

tis yr totallt no new yr mood la. but who cares! as long as money comes into my pocket! but tis yr hongbao too little...

first dae. 29/1

as usual, bai nian. planned to go out. but all dua me! cb.. hate ppl dua me wan lors. ERICA U SAW TIS ??? I HATE PPL TO DUA ME! FUCK U! but nvm... at least last min i get to enjoy. called like the whole world but no one is available for me. so fuck off! went to momo. whalala! everything is free! no la.. cos i dun have to pay wad. tis kinda tings mus let guys pay de. whahahahs. lols. didnt even bring ic. but they didnt even check. so shiok.. free drinks, cab fare. =p shit man. i tink i didnt drink for too long ald. i didnt drink much but vomitted 3 times. but not drunk at all k. went wif lynda. i jus loveeeeee the wae she moves. damn nice n sexy. wooohoo! next time mus ask her bring me go clubbing again. cos her frens will pay! =x hee..

second dae. 30/1

bai nian n after tt.... DID NTH. i wun let myself kena probation de. call me selfish or wadever. i wun stay at home wif u forever. FREAKIN ANGRY! cant watch my show. go lot one. ji tao full hse. den fuck it lahs. pizza. home. did nth.. but at least i win 20 + of his money. at least stil worth it. hahahahahha.

third dae. 31/1

SLEEP AT HOME. night, went to his hse wif huixiang they all. 8 plus gamble all e wae till 7 plus in e morning. got skul. but reali too tired.. skipped skul. yeah. won 40 + lols.

ytd... went to erica's hse. can u imagine i travel from bp to tamp ? wa lao... heng got car. or else dunwan go le. starting lose money ... alot lors. last 5 min i win everything back. muahahas. lady luck is still wif me! jack n lynette went off first so i stayed at erica's hse. didnt slp again. damn torturing. i look like ghost in skul todae.. damn ugly lors. eye bag so BIG.

tml jack tp lo. JACK! if pass ald mus bring ME go spin spin !! dun care dun care. first priority hor. dun forget u owe me 20K hor.. wahahas.


tired.. will blog soon. take care ppL!

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