and when she speaks
Saturday, February 18, 2006
dun ask me whther i passed my theory anot. cos i didnt go at all. haha. cos im lazy to go to 2 places la.. i wanted to go wif jack n yongteck to pub. but my test starts at 645 at batok. n the pub is at outram.. so its v troublesome to run 2 places la. not in the mood oso. i wanted to go for the test de. but they keep poloso me. den.... lols. i will go n book again la. but if i went dere ytd cfm can see him dere de.. cos ytd i called him.. n he told me he's at bbdc having lessons. he told me he purposely book on 17 cos he noe im going dere.. so sweet hor. lol.. hope he's still doing well ba. he started drinking again.. but i cant stop him oso la. only can ask him to take care... he asked me tt question again... but i duno how to ans him. wad i can only sae is.. sorry... i couldnt believe the 3 of us could actualli finish up the whole bottle of absolute vodka lor.. so jialat. n its lyk before 11 we finish the whole bottle ald. n im not drunk ytd ok. until now i still noe wad i did lo. hais. i dun uds y we mus quarrel everydae.... i came back den lie flat on my bed ald. den tok to my mum awhile... went to vomit again. n i duno how i fell asleep. ytd actualli at the pub i ald vomitted. summore on my jeans sia. but i dun dare to sae. haha! tts y im in the toilet for so long.. cleaning up the toilet. lols.. i feel so guilty for treating my mum tis wae.. sorry mummy. ytd she called me n i shouted at her. cos im feeling v irritated. she still ask me y i so pekchek. but i scold her.. i told her if she dun hang up the fone nw i sure scold her. when i went back she still ask me wad happened.. y i so pekchek.. den jus nw she asked me whether i watch i not stupid too ald anot.. den i told her not yet.. no one wants to watch wif me... she ask me whether wan to watch wif her later anot.. after she knock off.. den she acc me go watch... when she sae this i feel so touched.. now i noe.. when no one is there for u, ur family will alwaes be there! though most of the times we're quarreling , but i noe she meant well for me.. but too bad i cant go wif her cos i haf to finish all my shitty hw.. arghh.. its hard for her to ask me out or spare me some of her time... i miss the chance again.. hai.. i hate going home... going back to a home where no one is around... only me n my dog... i hate to haf a broken family... i envy so much when i see my friends parents tgt... n go out in a family... im not being kiddy to tink tis wae... cos i alwaes hope to enjoy tis kinda love since young.. hai.. they will nv uds how i feel towards dem.. tts the reason y i dun lyk to stay at home.. but they will nv uds.. they tot i love to play.. love not coming back home... so stress la! i feel so lonely!!
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