and when she speaks
Thursday, April 06, 2006
im sorry peeps! for neglecting all of u.. im reali reali busy wif my skul work!! i cant breathe with those assessments stacking on top of me. hais.. im reali stressed. i cant losen myself. its so tight. i reali cant breathe anymore. i couldnt take it. i almost cried in class. i reali wanted to cry out loud. but i reali dun wanna embarrass myself. i tink i've given myself too much pressure. so ppl who asked me out, IM REALI SORRY. i will try to fork out time IF i can. if cant, it will be after my assessments. its not that i dun wanna meet u guys. hope u guys will uds!
i shouldn't. hidden feelings which i myself duno wad thay are. i hope they're not wad im thinking. i shouldnt haf feelings. dun ask me wad im toking bout. maybe we shouldnt haf met ? its so weird. chemistry is a word which cant be explained. but y should i haf feelings for beasts. im not saying that person is. but guys are beasts. they are bastards. i'll rather be numb than haf any feelings. they cheat. they sweet talk. they tok big. they jus need gurls to satisfy their needs. they treat gurls as puppets. they are so horrible.. how shld i trust guys again.. guys dun get offended. i noe some are not but 99% out of 100% is. u guys noe wad kind of person u are. dun tell me in ur life u've nv been a fucker before ? one beast which i met tis yr is a good example. saying this, but doing that, and still... he push blame to others. he put words that he sae into my mouth n claimed tt he did not sae that. its me! wtf.. i hate ppl hu dun admit their mistakes.. n i see tis guy almost everydae. im not petty. but why shld i deserve tis ? thats y i sae guys are mother fuckers. luckily i din not put in any feelings. pure entertaining which didnt hurt me. dun try to fool arnd wif me. i'll gif u wad u deserved.
and.. i spoilt my bond wif my best fren. y good frens will eventually fall for each other? is there anything call purely true frens which doesnt involve any love in it ? i hope there is.. i wish that everything can be like wad we are last time. den i rather we dun tell each other how we feel. some things are better to be kept in the dark. i regretted. i broke the bond..
MIA for time being.. i'll blog whenever im free.. reli busy.. take care pp`i shouldn't.
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HER
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5:57 AM;;
