and when she speaks
Sunday, June 25, 2006
been very unhappy lately.. duno hw to cheer up.. anywae, derek n randy.. thanks for being there.. i really appreciated.. dun worry bout me ya. i wun do anything silly.. =) stress from skul is getting heavier. i hope i will be able to cope wif it. today is ald 25th.. 2 more daes will be my big dae.. but it means nth to me.. i dun feel anything.. and even thinking tat the closer the date it is to me, the more i feel sad. i dun planned to celebrate at all.. even if i planned to celebrate.. who the fuck will come ? who the fuck gives the damn shit about me ? besides kailin yishu n kelvin u tell me who will even bother to come? anywae its not important anymore la.. its jus another normal dae to me.. jus tt im jus a yr older.. it makes no big difference. soon i'll be used to be alone. ytd when i went out alone, someone asked me wad are frens for ? i feel like asking back.. ya wad are frens for ?! frens... everyone seems to be drifting away. tell me who are my true frens. i thought that... i wun die without a bf. wads the point of having a bf.. i dun mind.. at least i still have friends.. now.. even frens seemed to be so far away from me.. tis world is so fucking unfair and cruel. jus fuck off. i dreamt of smth so real. it cant be explained by words but i can really feel the pain.. of losing my own baby. when i wake up i was even wondering whether its real anot.. but luckily its all a dream......
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HER
thoughts
1:12 AM;;
