and when she speaks
Friday, June 09, 2006
im having very serious mood swings recently. so better not provoke me and i reali mean it. i wun gif face and will jus lose my temper. i dun care about how u ppl tink of me. maybe becos im too stress la. becos of many issues. one of them is definately money. but some ppl jus dun uds my problem. dun uds wads the meaning of NO MONEY. whole family is ald struggling, and i definately noe wad kind of condition they're going thru. though its not as bad as we haf to eat bread everyday, but i noe they're struggling la. studying in nafa is reali quite stress for me. its reali like no money, no talk. tis yr's skul fees increased so much.. omg.. when i showed my dad the amount, his expression changed. seems so stressed. reali hope i wun bring so much burden to my dad. but i cant do anything to lighten the burden. im not working... the only thing i could do is jus to study hard nw la. maybe i shouldnt be so vain la. alwaes tinking of buying clothes n stuffs. no one will uds this kinda feeling.. the situation im in now.. and how im feeling now.. though i noe there's much more ppl that is reali more miserable den me in this world. and some ppl jus dun uds.. when i sae, i reali got no money, i mean it. sometimes its not that dun haf the money. its that at such critical period i tink i shld not spend on unnecessary stuffs right. they will jus sae " take from ur dad la " of cos its easy to sae... but do u ppl noe how much he spend on me ald? i noe there might be ppl in my skul looking down on me. im not a branded person, becos i reali couldnt afford. i wanted to buy a better laptop too. but i spare a thought for my dad, and i tink that as long as the functions can fulfill wad i wan.. im fine with it. maybe i shouldnt expect too much. who doesnt want a nice laptop ? people is using VAIO, HP, Macbook. while im using acer. i noe the appearence sucks ok. people is wearing bebe, guess. taking LV, gucci. while im only wearing a normal t-shirt n jeans wif sandals. ya thats me. im not rich. i couldnt afford any of this. look down on me if u wan.. there's nth i can do.. jus dun compare me with u, can ald. forget it, no people will understand man. bravely, i will walk through all problems by myself. im reali moooooooody! =( i typed this whole fucking entry for 2 hours. -_-
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HER
thoughts
9:13 AM;;
